For Future Reference....

I have given up on giving a crap what other people think of me.  At one point, two days ago, I was concerned because someone didn't want their child subjected to the subject material on my blog (I'm still trying to decide if that was a serious jab or a reference to something I said to my sister). 

For those of you who know me, I am bi-polar, I have anxiety issues, and sometimes major depression issues.  With my pregnancy, I cannot take ANY of my medications, which is making it extremely difficult for me to regulate my moods (we can skip the "God help your husband" comments).  Therefore, when something upsets me, as much as I try to stop it, it just snowballs, and my mind races a mile a minute, usually to the worst possible scenario.  Long story short, I vented to my sister, who went to the source (completely not her place, which I told her, as did the source, even though I know she was just trying to look out for me), and made the entire situation more complicated.  I just needed to vent my frustrations to someone I could trust because OBVIOUSLY I can't take my Xanax to calm my goofy ass down.  On top of it all, my hubby was upset over my last blog (about the abortion situation), but I don't understand why.  The woman I was ranting about is NOT on my friends list, nor is there any way she would have got to my blog to read it (I mean obviously if she read it, she would know it were about her, but she wouldn't even get that opportunity...as would any other of my blogs...if I blog about you, be happy I leave your name out, unless I specifically ask you, or you request it...)

So, let me make this VERY clear.  I no longer care what ANYBODY (Including my husband) says about my blog.  If you don't like it; DON'T READ IT.  You don't get a choice over what I write about; you don't get to tell me I shouldn't have blogged about a specific event; you just get to be happy I leave out names.  It's called the first amendment, and I intend to push it to the limits.  If this makes you uncomfortable, once again, DON'T READ MY BLOG.  I'm not afraid of the sensitive subjects, I usually have an opinion about them, that I am more than willing to share with you.  It was also brought to my attention that I don't filter myself.  Nope, I don't, nor do I plan to start.  Especially if you ask for my opinion.  Don't ask if you can't handle the brutal, honest to God (or other higher power) truth.  Ask my friends...sometimes I piss them off with my responses to their questions, but they love me anyways.  I don't mince words, I don't make any attempt to be somebody I'm not.  I'm not a murderer, a cheat, or a liar (minus Xmas gifts and things like that).  I am a good person, a good mother, a good advocate for many causes, and my voice WILL be heard; again, if you don't like this; DON'T READ MY BLOG (are we noticing a trend here???)!  This blog is part of my self-care, and I think it helps not only me, but some of my friends too, because it opens up a dialog!

And while I'm in the mood to be bitchy...wtf is up with parents who are split up using their children as pawns...I have a very good friend of mine who is struggling with discipline with her child.  Problem is, she doesn't have residential custody, and the father is trying to take the boys away.  I say tell him to go fuck himself, and take custody since he's never home, the boys don't get bathed regularly due to a nasty ass bathroom, and they need more supervision than he is willing to give.  She would be more than able to provide a safer, more stable environment for the children, and she owns her house outright; he lives with his mom and dad in a double wide...with like 6 kids....